~28/06/2009~Sunday~

Let's say "Happy Belated Birthday "to xTypoX_Mic3y and zaizai~~~~~~
know got member bday wor...so...sure must wish them de ma....
bt...so 可惜 onli mice can receive my wish...why zaizai no??
coz of...i reali duno how to msg him edi....after tat day...he told mii tat i dy no contact him at all...his last msg i oso din reply...i duno how to reply oso...so Bday msg no send to him...and i dun1 baobei missund again...
so i onli wish at here ^^

this day...i so happy lo....not habi coz they bday la sure....
i happy coz of....i...finally...ply dao XDO jor!!!!
wahhh....reali so happy lo....and help shua jia jor many ...i long time no shua le...(zoi mm shua kena biba der sei mii...)and can shua wif my biba jie few round neh.../admire
acc mii so many de is our min min dai + jie lorh~~~
the 1st chat wif mii de is xuxu...bt she keep afk wor...keep say wan bath ....so din ply so many wif mii lorh...
and mao jie!! long time no ply wif those guys le...reali so happy...
bt i reali dun like go cc on9 lo...hou mm ji zoi lo....
and hor...bside duno sit jor gor apa orang....keep ask mii thing..and talk to mii when i PLAYING!
ppl so noob de ma...must 专心 de ma when plying if not hou easy game over de leh...summore all new song...ngo guai sik ply meh =.=
and he reali so kong bu lo...come cc da kei geh ma...bring a big big BIG beg wor...look like ngam ngam duno do jor d mea shui ye gam...
other sui thing is..hou 邪 de lorhh...when i ply keep new song...less old song...when change mao jie...old song jump out jor wor...change bak mii hor..then new song come bak jor...and keep repeat b4 ply jor de song...zomok Gm dun1 make leng leng lei....dun so easy then repeat ma...so sien geh leh if ply random for so a long time....
btw...dim dou hou la...im so happy tat day go jor cc ply xdo~虽然旁边的很恐怖~
actualy i can on more 1 or 2 hour de lo....my bro sdly fetch jor mii go 1u...see can buy dou movie ticket mou....bt cant get it...coz too full la...so...we dun1 waste parking $ ma..so go jor arcade ply lo..so long no go arcade oso le...ply RockFever...wahhh miss dou ghost gam...lucky i choose Fever de wont fail de...hahahx...
yun bun wan ply parapara de ...bt got "high hand"(gao shou) thr wor..i papa so i go get lolipop for eat~hehex...

erm...nth to write jor gua????
zao gam sin la....
jz wan let u all noe im happy the day ply xdo wif u all
^^
Thx for ply wif mii~
muackz~

For傻心：很多广东音。。你读得懂吗？

and 1 more....Today (30/6) is my 无敌笨蛋傻佬未婚夫 de Birthday neh~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY To You ya~hehex....
Remember u promise me de orh...u will请我吃大餐的~~i will REMEMBER tat!!
hahahax~

Why u all owiz wan like tat make mii sad de arh/...

The 1st make me so sad de is my baobei....bt now still is my baobei i think she answer is no/...i reali so broken....

Broken Heart
我真的很伤心与心痛也不解为什么我们回搞到如此田地。。。。我们曾经那么的要好过。。。我们曾经那么的亲近过。。。可是。。为什么现在会这样呢？？我真的不明白。。。在那里面。。你可以说是比姐还要早跟我熟悉起来的。。。可是现在。。我站在你面前。。。坐在你面前。。你却对我视而不见。。听而不闻。。。那晚的我。。真的很辛苦。。也不知道该怎么办才好。。。那么多的人知道我与你之前要好的程度。。现在却这样子了。。。姐头头在她房问我是否很想念你时。。我真的不知道应该回答什么。。。对。。可以这么说我是想念你的。。见到你时真的想像以前那样拥抱后再来个吻。。可是现在想跟你正面笑个都没有。。我与你的问题早在之前喝茶就感受到了。。可是我却百思不得其解。。。到底是怎么了？？我做了什么吗？我记得我不曾做过什么啊。。。直到今天我大概确实的算得到了答案。。原来是因为你男朋友跟我偶尔的联系？不会吧？就这样毁了我与你之间的友情？？那也太儿戏了吧？？心想。。难道＂宝贝＂这字眼是白叫的吗？？叫爽的吗？？再一次的让我羡慕姐和妈咪。。。。。。。。。说真的之前我真的只是不开心和心不舒服而已。。然后到下午。。他问了我觉得心痛吗？有哭吗的时候。。。我告诉她。。。不至于啦～可是事实上他一说我的眼泪就流了。。。可是。。这也是没有办法了。。。如果因为那样而导致这样的话。。我真的不知道说什么或做些什么来解决好。。这真的很难解决。。。所以我也只能说nth to do for now....和我能做的就是尽量减少与zai联系，交谈。。看能不能改善些什么咯。。还有。。尽量不让人感觉到我与宝贝（还是宝贝吧？）的问题。。。不然。。你们问起我不知道怎么回答。。。只能一笑而过吧。。。现在真的只希望一切都会过去。。。不然等臭４３回来的话有聚会。。那该怎么办才好。。。。。和。。现在的我没有uniform真的很难搞下。。。~haiz................................凡人真的很烦下的咯～

reali duno how to settle it/... i noe u all owiz chat wif she de...any1 can tel mii what i did wrong???bt i think my blog duno wait til when oli got ppl see hahahax....

The 2nd make mi so sad de...is you...ya...you...at other side cant see this website de you.....

i duno u is yau sam ding mou yi....owiz i ask u thing...u oso wil 拖拖拖~拖 til mayb u feel mii sad or i use so kua jiong de way ask u...u oli tel mii de answer...owiz same...is everytime same....other i think jie,min they all u mayb will 主动 tel when u will be bak m'sia...i owiz duno the date u bak or the month u bak....owiz oso baka say u got bak i oli will noe tat....then keep ask u...u wont say....do u noe u like tat i will so sad???gam dou suin la...atlease 到最后 i oso will noe the date u bak ^^....i dy ok jor de....bt why...let mii see tat....what cal "so this time xTypoX gathering i will not attending"?? onli xTypoX??i noe tat mayb u are kiding...coz我坚信u still love xTypoX de...so...i oso will 争取after u bak here we can meet de 机会...bt i think hard abit....coz i oli sunday no work...if reali like baka say u bak got gathering bt on weekday i reali cant attend...and i din hv uniform for now...shirt,shoe,cap all in my KD de house...no uniform go gathering 原本is nth de..bt..i so scare they will ask mii zomok no wear........i duno how to answer it/...so tat day mama cal mii ask mii mm sai wear uniform go de le hor?i 55 say nonit de la...hak mang mang...i feel lucky our uni is black colour de is red colour i duno find what 借口..then nite turn barbi say wan wear uniform photo get si hao..i reali soh jor...lucky he jz xia mii jek =.=

so long no write blog jor...i duno what i typing....so luan shui rite?bt not much ppl see ma...suan le ba...i jz wan to write down jek...if not my mood duno will down til when.....if any dak zui then sorry lo...也是那句dun like dun see larh...no body force oso ma rite =.=...i jz folo sum1 say de...blog is ownself de ma...so wan wirte what oso can...nonit care ppl dim tai de ma...i jz folo it jek...

~Finaly~

Finally i cant in ah min geh blog jor...
i think mayb she will keep sum body de list bah...
when i see she blog i noe i will kena DEl soon...
Reali today i on mm dou jor....

nvm...
u all hapi then ok jor...
i cant "qiang bi"(sorry no chinese here) ppl do what do what oso...
jz hope all can happy everyday then enuf jor larh...

～希望～

today...biba jie ask mii update blog...
then i answer she...i will update after finish u all de blog...
then...i go jor xdo...
hahahax..

then now i guai guai come jor lorh....
erm.....
my title is hope......
erm....what i wan to hope...
i hope...i can bak home faster...
i hope i can meet my fren(include xTypoX )soon....
i hope u all de life still got miii..or say..i hope u all 4ever wont 习惯 mii not here.....
coz i reali scare will kena 4get....
i most hope...u all dun like wan 划清界线 like that...

i rmb got a guy tel mii b4....
u so many fren....scare what...sure so bz go out la apa apa la...
erm...i think jor so long...tat ques still now still din hv a answer...why???
coz...i reali dun think i got alot of fren...
b4 edi think like this...now...nonit to say oso noe...
can say no fren gam...
my phone can 1 day or 2 day or more long din "RING" leh...
then i hope my super best fren will kaki msg mii chat chat....
but i noe she wont....if i no sms she ..she wont contact mii at all de...
its so hurt mii...reali de....
then i on9...i see u all de blog i duno izzit shud more hurt???
i reali duno answer....

yun bun i so sad coz of tat...bt after tat i so happy de go xdo le...
coz...tat all oso pass jor de thing so i dun to think again....
我相信你们会“明天会更好 ”的 rite???

hope u guys wont let mii 失望 ^^
must remember...
xTypoX_BuRu mui/jeje/Jbru =.=


duno baka still got come mou..
bt i wan tel u....dun kaki消失
i wont fong guo you/!/warn



nid to off le~~~~

~~~~~~~~to be continue~~~~~~

eye pain T.T

Today i folo my bro go cc online....
i tot wan find u all de...
but duno why bo lang on /down
nan dak i on bt bo lang wor...reali sad...
baka oso acc me awhile then go ply game jor....

this cc so dark yat ha lo...
yun bun headache de mii....gambateh read jor all blog u all update de.....
so eye pain jor...and tired oso...
duno later still can ply xdo anot...

1st i go see biba de blog...coz easy rmb ma haha...
oli got 1 new....
erm...actualy ...abit sad la...
coz....bfore 6 of mac edi no contact wif she dy...coz i tot she bak china dy...bt yun loi bo...
then got a time yum cha...by my house dy gt happen..so cant go...so cant meet she...after tat time din contact at all....
i tot after see my blog she will contact mii geh bt ..wait wait wait oso no.....
then blog oso mm guan ngo si....
i see jie,min and marmi de blog oso got write about me..i reali very gam dong de lorh...
nearly cry tim..bt in cc...cant cry...

anyway...
Thankz u all so so much~~~
i LOVE u all so much~~
T.T
muackz muackz muackz....


after see jie de blog hor....i reali feel i not kolian larh....
im luck jor de la suin....
now oli my bro get sum phone kacau jek...
but...we still 安全 ma rite??
dy so good d lurr...

i see jie write to me de jor...
i reali feel jie kelian then me...
i will sek jie more and more and more de /yes/yes/yes!!!!!
then i see sumthing...mayb 日後 i need to 請教 jie de.......

then i see marmi de blog...
seem our family oso got same problem...tats...$$$
marmi gambateh ya~~~~
hehex

then min min blog...erm....
min min update many....i see dou so dizzy....
coz all eng....full of eng...swt...
ohyea...this time my blog eng ya....
dun say i use chinese jor/wq
i noe u dun like to see chinese /wq
and i so gam dong to see ur blog~~~^^


zomok jie and marmi mou lala change blog jek T.T
btw hor...
jie change jor oso good...coz easy rmb haha~~~~~~~
blogspot de so hard to rmb T.T
ppl in cc duno how to see tim...


actualy i many wan update la..
but reali no time..and my bro bside mii oli....
and i edi duno how to tel u all...all my news dy...good de bad de sad de hurt de...apa apa de...
hope got chance can tel u all ..all my news ba...

onli remember 1 thing enuf la u all..
tats.....I LOVE YOU ALL~~~and so MISS u all oso~~~
muackz muackz muackz...


errrr.....
like this sin la....
so tired jor..
and saya mau pergi xdo jor
hohoho!!!!!

and WHO going sharon jie wedding >?????
let me noe ha~~i wan noe got who go...
and HOPE i can go~~~~~~^^

-------------------THE END-------------------

Renew my news...

So many ppl ask me what happen....
tu baka keep say i din tel him my thing sure he duno mii zomok gui ma...
ok lorh...i tulis blog lo...satu kali let u all noe my thing lo ^^

1st ask me zomok de is jie...(jie so rude de lo..ask yan msg me ask me jor mat 7 no skul =.=)ask my zomok no skul ....erm...i edi 1 week no skul le ...coz of sumthing happen jor...so i cant go skul....and after this blog..i will so so so long cant on9 de lorh...u all wan find me can msg me...msg to my new phone bah...old phone no use at all le ...
jie oso got ask me...ok mou...actualy....tat time...ngo hou siong say...im no ok....i see jie de msg i terus cry jor.....i see bao de msg i oso cry jor....i reply u all msg my tear oso out jor...
but i cant let u all worry ma...so i say im ok..im nth...dun worry...
all of my frens....oli got few noe what happen on mii..the 1st noe my thing is 傻心...
傻心啊。。。我的已经是坏消息咯~希望你的事好消息。。你是幸运的那个哦。。要信息我你的消息哦~其他人也是一样/warn

Today...msg to jie my new num ma...then jie heng me wor ....T.T i mai grievance lorh...then she ask me dun ban kolian T.T i reply she...i reali ko lian now ma...she seem no blif at all =.=
ok lorh...
let i tel u all why i so ko lian now har !!
coz of!!!!
my dad mm dim jor .........so run jor lur....
before he run he got discuss wif us...we how after he run to other way....
so this oso coz why i nit to change my phone num...coz my 3119822(so mm se dak this num haiz..i use jor atleast....6 or 7 years......) is my dad sub line to mii geh...so must cut it...so change to prepaid dy...so i cant owiz msg wif u all de lorh....bo lui....must save $$ jor now ....coz no dad yong jor....
then 为了避开债主。。。我必须暂时停学然后和我妈离开雪州至少1个星期多。。。我会和我妈去外婆那里避避风头。。。那里是乡下地方。。所以没有的上网。。。我又没有laptop...所以过了今晚我没有online了。。。要找我。。就电话吧^^
不要问我会不会继续读书。。。因为我几时能回来我也不知道。。。
我表哥说。。直接去他那里帮忙做秘书这样。。。不要读书了。。。反正我对读书也没兴趣嘛。。。哈哈。。可是我妈妈觉得不读书也要去考spm=.=(没有读书考屁咩==)
这一些一些都要等我能回来这家住再作打算。。。。。

可能你们会觉得很奇怪吧。。。我家看起来不像那么容易就倒。。看起来很有钱的样子。。。一考到车就有车驾拉。。。房子又大啦。。什么什么的。。。
可是。。。我并不是。。。正所谓好看不好吃啊。。。
这样的家庭才经不起大风浪。。。。因为。。。富不富。。穷不穷的。。。
幸好我不是那种一出世就这种家境。。不然还真不知道该怎么好。。。
现在真的样样都要省着点用。。。


现在已经是1点31分了。。。就是3月6日。。。不知道有人知道是什么日子吗？？？
对。。没有错。。就是小女18岁生日。。。。
18岁生日是应该好好庆祝一番的吧。。原本真的是的。。。像好好跟学校朋友庆祝的。。因为超久没有和他们一起庆祝了。。。想说今年都中5了嘛。。要好好珍惜的。。。怎么知道。。。haiz...安排好好了。。跟他们说谁都不准ffk我的。。可是现在却是我ffk了他们。。。真的很过意不去呢。。酒店钱也给了。。现在才说不能去。。。这样就没有了RM20了。。就当赔罪吧。。
只是没想到。。。我的18岁生日竟然会成为了我的逃难日。。。哈哈哈！想不深刻我想也很难吧。。。只是希望明年我能开开心心的庆祝。。不要再那么多灾多难了。。。。
去年的生日。。是我收到最多礼物的生日。。也是用最少钱的生日。。。记得不过RM10~哈哈~今年。。。haiz.....

暂时我收到了。。barbi~皇哥~yag~和一些fs朋友的祝福~对了。。。还有我老婆的祝福。。虽然她不知道我怎么了但是还是祝贺我。。。谢谢你们的祝福~~有你们的祝福就够了。。。至少还是有人记得的。。。
可能有得祝福我为能收到。。因为我已经换掉号码了。。可能有人send去那里也不一定~~呵呵~~总之。。。都谢谢你们。。。谢谢。。。。

希望你们不要把我的消息乱说出去。。。我只给有我部落的人知道。。。不知道的让他们继续不知道就好了。。。还有。。。在此声明。。不必让miyako/xiaoyan知道我的消息。。。我自己会像他们交待但是。。不是现在。。。

请你们一切保密守口如瓶。。。谢谢。。。

奇迹。。。

没试过几小时内写几个部落。。。虽然都短短的。。。
没关系吧。。反正那么久没写嘛。。。

有时候。。很多东西想知道想问。。。却找不到当事人。。。
所以很多人都会选择问一些知道的人。。。
而。。我也不例外。。我多数选择问别人。。因为我知道当事人不会说的。。。这我已经习惯了。。。
因为我也不知道应该怎么去问。。去了解。。。
问得太明白。。会让那人不开心。。。问得不够明白。。就是用暗示的。。那人肯定装疯卖傻。。。那。。我又何必问呢？？简直多此一举嘛。。。对不对？

今天。。我也有了相同的举动。。选择问别人。。但。。貌似问错了人。。因为。。我知道问这个人。。也只有那4个字。。就是多此一举。。。
所以问到一半我就停止了。。。。。
而且。。。刚才跟傻心说。。如果一个自己关心的人的事。。要从别人那里得知。。才能付出那真心的关心与问候的话。。那就是没有意义的。。
虽然说。。。每次得知你们有事。。我都不能清楚了解事情。。。可是。。。我相信你们都知道我是关心你们的。。。
虽然。。最后我得到的都是伤害。。。

其实。。如果从别人口中得知自己所关心的人的事情是种伤害来的。。尤其是。。无端端有人漏了点东西出来时。。。更是觉得无奈。。
脑海里只会想着。。为什么。。为什么。。
为什么会是从别人那里知道。。为什么不是那个人自己来告诉自己。。
为什么忽然感觉陌生了。。。为什么忽然觉得感情都不见了。。。
更是会气自己为什么没有好好维持好关系。。而导致今天这样的田地。。。
所以。。。傻心。。不要让你的傻婆成为受伤害的那个。。。
那种感觉并不好受的。。

要相信我。。因为那感觉我太了了。。。

内疚。。。难过。。。

是时候了吗？？？

我忽然觉得很内疚。。。。emo是个新人可是。。却已经认识了很多很多的会员。。甚至连少上线的sasa都已经很认识了。。
而我。。连emo是哪位。。哪里冒出来。。几时冒出来的也不知道。。
我这旧人甚至可以说变成了个新人了。。。
你说好笑不好笑？

其实。。我好像问你们一句。。。你们还记得我吗？

还记得buru是谁吗？


真的。。。我已经不知道我这星期内哭了多少次。。流了多少泪。。。
家里已经够我泪多了。。。
没想到另外个家也让我泪流满脸。。。